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I decided to start this today because for one since my husband left for the Navy in November I have had so many frustrations and feel like my life is a roller coaster so i figure this is a good way to let off some steam or just talk about the awesome things that happen in my life too since i have been blessed in so many ways. Also I use to post some blogs on myspace but I dont really like myspace anymore and no one ever gets on there anymore either so...Today was not one of those "awesome" days but frustrating. I even took a "serenity" pill (some all natural pill that is suppose to relieve frustration and stress) however it did not work for me because I got angry today. Tomorrow I suppose I will take the full dose. lol. Anyway the anger today was 1st from my kids who in Target were just crying crying crying all because i did not let them walk. Anyone with toddlers knows that it's not fun to let him or her walk by themselves in any store. I dont know why today they felt the need to do so. I just dont like it when they cry in a store because I get really tired of old ladies looking at me like "oh she is a young mom and probably doesnt know what she is doing" . I know that is judgmental of me but looks can judge too. Anyway once we got to the car they fell asleep and took an early nap so i guess they were tired. My REAL anger today came from when my husband for one calls me and decides to "april fools" me. Not cool Timothy!!!! However he did get his orders on paper for his A-school and was suppose to go to the housing office today to figure out our moving date etc. BUT the one freaking day he needs to get out of school on time they kept them until 4;45 and the office closes at 5. So I waited around all day nervous to find out nothing. The reason for my nervousness is because one of Tim's classmates who has the same rate as him told him that he had to have his wife move there by April 15th or they would not pay for the move. APRIL 15th!!!!!!! It is April 1st and I am suppose to go visit him on the 9-12th so that is not going to work out if our move in date has to be by then. So being the worry wart and stressful woman that I am is FREAKING out and is just ready for info. I'll be glad when I get the hang of this military life. Dont know that I ever will since I am impatient worrisome and stressed 95% of the time. All I know is that I am ready to be a family again. My babies miss their daddy and I miss my husband and best friend. All I can do is pray that God fills the void in their and my life right now and in the future. One thing that did make my day later today is when Sadie and Sydney walked up to me and told me they got me a present. It was one of their toys they put in a little plastic snack box and then Sydney says "I made you a cake honey" haha No matter how frustrated I get they can always make me smile. Thank God for them!!!! Those two are definitely the lights of my life and idk were I would be without my two baby girls! :) The Bible verse in my head that I need to keep reminding me on days like this is Matt 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"


~The End